Deliberately Vs. Non Deliberately

"Dear friends, if we deliberately continue sinning after we have received knowledge of the truth, there is no longer any sacrifice that will cover these sins." Hebrews 10:26

After reading this verse this morning, there was so much inside of me that I had to get out.

While others may find fault in this way of thinking, I must say that my "sin" struggle is with my flesh. It is not blatant, deliberate sin I continue to struggle with, but with a burden, something much heavier than I can carry. It's almost as if it's something not even "of me." Some days I will wake up and say, "Really? Seriously? I can't believe I did that. I can't believe I said that. What in the world is wrong with me?" And this is pretty much daily.

Thankfully, my heart still breaks over these sins. Some days I will cry and say, like Paul, "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate to do." Romans 7:15. And therein lies my struggle.

Thankfully, my heart is still soft towards Truth. I WANT to do right and live right, and make good choices daily. The Spirit within me wants to do right. I know my Bible. I can recite multiple Bible versus. I know what I should and should not be doing. So how come I don't always do it?

Because my flesh is weak, but my faith is strong. Is that possible you ask? Of course it is! And I believe your faith is strong simply because you are reading this blog right now. You are searching for answers. You are searching for truth.

I believe the key to overcoming is perserverence. It would be easy to read versus like Hebrews 10:26 and never want to get out of bed in the morning. You could say, "Well, I've sinned too much. There is no more grace left for me." But that is not the truth.

Every single time I come to God with my struggle in humility (through faith), asking Him, begging Him to help me, He NEVER fails to do so. I think that's the key. To get back up and in the game every time you come up short. Every time you log on to that porn site, or look up your ex's Facebook profile. Everytime you look at that man or woman with a lustful eye, or every time you tell a lie. Yes, be ashamed, and then take it to God. He won't be surprised.

I have found that in the midst of my struggle, I can still have His peace if I stay humble. I can still have favor if I confess my sins to Him and ask Him to help me. He knows we can't do this life on our own. As Christians living in this world, we are being bombarded with images, gadgets, and so many things that can easily distract us from living a godly life! It's not easy. At least for me it isn't.

God continues to use me in spite of my weakness. It's because I refuse to shrink back or give up, even when I sin.

We must always remember that"He who is in YOU is greater than he who is in the world."

The Bible says that God will CONTINUE to deliver you as long as your heart is open to Him working in your life (2 Corinthians 1:10).

So today, if you are doing something in hiding or something you know you should not be doing you must: Face it. Confess it. Tell God what you are struggling with, ask Him to help you overcome it while you ACT upon the power that is within you. Jesus paid the ultimate price for you to be set free today. Choose to do whatever is necessary in order to be liberated and set free from whatever it is you are struggling with. You will be so glad you did!

Kim